I have spent my entire life making me.  For better or for worse, I am the sum of my experiences.  In the process of generating much needed support from the people in my life that know me, I have come to the realization that I cannot disembark from the past histories that have come to shape me as a person.  I am a man who has made many mistakes and have many days that I am sorry for.

My life has been a marvelous adventure of twists and turns, loves and failures; all for which I am extremely grateful.  I have learned undoubtedly a lot from my many mistakes along this journey and have tried to make the best out of every day.  Many days, weeks, and months have not always turned out so well, but I persevere in times of trouble and continue to try to find the righteous path in my travels.

Let me begin by apologizing to the many people I may have had concerning moments with in the past.  I have failed on many levels and in many relationships in my life, but never have intended to hurt people with my actions.  I have long battled issues with alcohol abuse and have made many poor choices in my struggles that have resulted in hurt feelings and chaos that has many time affected directly the people closest to me.  I sincerely apologize for my immature behaviors and ignorant words that have sometimes been characterized as volatile and hurtful.  I have never meant to belittle or disenfranchise others with my rhetoric, but I often hide behind an aggressive front to hide my raw emotions and to defend myself from would-be predators.  I have tried to work on these actions and have tried to mature in my communications with the world around me.

I have made many poor choices in my life and there is no way to change the past.  I have grown a great deal over the past decade and have worked very hard on making wiser decisions and more thoughtful practices to begin the healing process.  I have grown immensely in my experiences with my children.  I am able to see a clearer and more innocent view of the world that reminds me of when life was so much simpler.  Where there was no jaded outlooks on life, and discoveries were made on a daily basis.  I am able to reach back and grasp a piece of myself that reminds me of times when I was very happy and my world was as big as my understanding of it.  

I see my experiences with Tainted/Compassion as a parody of my personal life.  The company developed from a small company with limited knowledge and questionable practices into a highly educated and efficient organization that prided itself on responsible packaging and ethics.  I too have done a great deal of growing in those years and, like the company, I to have learned more about medical cannabis, reasons I medicated with cannabis for many years of my life, and learned ways of being more responsible with my own medicinal uses of cannabis.  I have graduated from St. Mary's College with honors and have excelled in business management efficiency.  I now have used my skills to develop a prospering party rental business and have grown greatly in my experiences with even my current legal issues.

I am sure this comes as no surprise for anyone along the way who has had a chance to meet me in person.   I am far from perfect, but I am working on it.  I will always have to stay focused on my world and be sure to work hard at making my experiences more happy and less volatile.  But I wanted to dispel any thoughts that I was perfect.  Far from it.  But in all reality, we all have issues stemming from the ways we were raised, the people who raised us, the environment in which we live, and the genetic make-up of our inner-most beings.  Perfection is far from any of us in the human race, but as long as we learn from our mistakes and try to do better next time, we will sure to find the world moving in the right direction.