Just to let all who care about me know that I am doing okay. I have been a bit of a recluse lately, as I am still a bit overwhelmed by the magnatude of the road ahead. Also, I am switching medications to try and find a combination of pharmeceuticals that will hopefully help me feel better in the long run. It is a shame that I have to combine three volatile chemical synthetic medicines to accomplish what cannabis helped me with. Hopefully my liver or brain will not be too worse for the wear when it is all said and done. I am also looking at having knee surgery as soon as there is a space on the schedule at Kaiser for me. I have a torn ACL in my right knee that has continued to get wose and resulted in me falling down a small flight of stairs, as it dislocated completely and I lost my balance. I took a header into a small retaining wall and got a mild concussion and some lacerations. Facing sentencing, surgery, and trying to figure out how to pay the bills has me a bit stressed, overwhelmed, and worn out. I apologize if I have not kept in direct contact with some of you more often. Please understand that I am in a chaotic and strange survival mode that is uncumfortable for me to speak about, and therefore I have had a habit of avoiding unecesary contacts. Hopefully the combination of anti-depressants, tranquilizers, and marinol will have me feeling more regular in the near future. much love to the friends and family who have supported us through all of this mess. Feel free to give me a call, but understand if I do not answer it is nothing personal. Just a bit beside myself these days and not up for too much communication with the outside world. Stay up out there.