There are three days left until sentencing.  No big deal.  I have come to the conclusion that there is no sense in worrying.  No sense in being scared.  No sense in getting frustrated.  This situation is deeper than me.  Deeper than medical cannabis.  Deeper than common sense.  History will be the judge of this injustice and we the people will forever look at the government as a vehicle for greed and corruption, rather than justice and morality.

This situation has the ability to alter the course of my life forever and affect my family for years to come.  It is amazing to me that there is so much evidence and common sense arguments to be made for cannabis, yet we continue to see our precious resources wasted on investigating, prosecuting, and incarcerating citizens for their wishes to use safe and effective natural medications.  It is preposterous to think that there are children in Oakland who will start school without the proper books, teaching staff, and guidance because our resources are stretched so thin, but we continue to see millions of dollars being wasted to instill fear and compliance regarding medical cannabis.  Forget what doctors, scientists, and concerned citizens think.  We will continue to throw valuable resources down the drain making criminals out of patients and providers.  It is frustrating to say the least.

As another major hurricane approaches New orleans, we are reminded of the gross incompetence and lack of response that has left this great city decimated for the last three years since Katrina.  We can not afford to help rebuild after a tragic national disaster, but we can afford to pay several DEA agents to follow me around and go through my garbage for making cannabis based food products for patients in California.  Does something seem out of whack?

Yes.  this government, this administration, and the entire way of governing has struck out.  There are no more do-overs left.  It is done.  They have failed miserably.  They have put the interest of greed and finances ahead of the welfare of their people and the result has been disastrous.  Can we rebound?  Will we ever trust this government to be truly of the people and by the people again?  Was it ever in the first place?  I know I am forever a skeptic and I an ingrained with anger and frustration , as I face what may be the most difficult time in my life.  I feel betrayed, angered, and disillusioned with the process and can not be sure if I will ever feel like I am welcome in my own country.

I may be compelled to run for public office myself and try to be the change I want to see in the world, after this mess is concluded and my life is restored to somewhat of a normal pace.  We will see.  Maybe I can be the mayor of Oakland, the governor of California, or even run for the Senate one day soon, and attempt to shake up the establishment from the inside out.  We will have to see what destiny has in store for my future.  As for now, I will go humbly into the belly of the beast and admit my guilt on Wednesday afternoon.  I will also question the validity, the constitutionality, and the motivation for such a vicious attack on myself, my family, my businesses, and my future.  Is this really what our founding fathers had in mind when creating a bill of rights? Did they envision that our legal system would be used as a tool to quash the will of the people and create criminals out of innocent citizens seeking natural relief in conjunction with their physician's recommendation, and in conjunction with a sovereign state's laws?  I some how doubt it.